Yes that would be me. I have however made some LO during my absence. Share these first before the catching up talk:



Credits: Almost everything from Michelle Coleman's Chelsey's dream except for dark brown paper by Dianne Rigdon from Joshua's day in the sun, imperfectly frame stitches by Cristine Nash, Double stitch from Sara Carling's authentic kit, straight stitches from Gina Miller, burlap heart by Gina Cabrera at DDE. hand stamped brush from Michelle Coleman and denim alpha from Katie Pertiet. Fonts used: Book Antiqua, Pretext and Carpenter ICG. TFL



Credits: Brickwall background from Jennifer Tripetti's Play Hard kit, Alpha freebie from Carrie Stephens, Funky flowers from Gypsy chick at ACOT, ricrac from Gina Miller's finishing touches, Antiquefinds card from Michelle Underwood, tag from Summer Whimsy kit here at Scrapartist, Freebie pink flower from Kim Christensen, eyelet from rough n tumble kit by Eve Recinella, acrylic stapled heart from Michelle Coleman's tutti frutti elements pack, staples from Girls Lie too kit by Kim Christensen, picture blended with free paper from Kristy Ann Nerness (free from newsletter) stamped crown and metalcrown accent from Michelle Underwood's crownstamp pack, letter p from Michelle Coleman's new handstamped brush alpha and swirly doodles by Ida (freebie from catscrap.com). Fonts: Rebekah's Birthday and Oedipa.



Credits: IOD wicked garden papers, staples, inked edge overlay, tag, tape and paper clip form IOD's essential kit, crochet from Dianne Rigdon's sweet abandon kit, criss cross stitches from Micheel Coleman's tutti frutti pack, ribbon and lopoey trim from Gina MIller's finishing touches, aged notebook paper from Gina MIller, alpha from Mindy Terawasa's treasured kit, and Michelle Pearson's floral brushes as clipping mask for paper. Atomic cupcake crumble and tear action. Free Dagerre action on photo lightened with blending modes. Fonts: Broken 15, Jefferson and Bulky Refuse type.

Well, 3 LO as opposed to one by one, but nevertheless I struggled getting this finished, erasing, removing, never satisfied. It's the same ole battle crativity versus perfectionism and just feel inadequate and all that insecurities talk. I know what's causing this. Not being outside, socializing, face to face contact, peers, colleagues, expanding horizons. Well, that, and I haven't heard from those I applied for and the house not looking squeeky clean as I hoped it would be. For one moment, as corny as she is, I wished I was Sabrina with her magic and make all the clutter disappear with a wave of the hand (is that what she does, told you she was corny, I don't pay attention).

Oh well with all the dreaded stuff, I remain alive and in good condition and emotionally healthy surprising enough.

Weather is not so pleasant either, riding on my mood. Sappy, grey and rainy weather. Darn! How in the world can I show off my shopping conquest, ROFL (thanks Weng, now there's meaning behind the abbreviation). I want to go out buy rice cause I feel a hungerpang and we're out of our rice, and if the weather was nice, I would go out in a jiffy with my home clothes and sandals, but now I gotta get dressed and protect myself from the darn wetness outside.

Is it obvious that I am cranky right now. It doesn't help that I nowadays rediscovered winamp radio and listens to a pop top 40 station. Not actually the relaxing music. Weird for me to be tuning into this. I have so varied musictaste that even I confuse myself.

Liv pointed out my astig side. OMG girl, you can't imagine me when I went from Norway to 3rd year high school in Philippines. They had to unprogram my siga walk and make me comb my hair and dress me up like I was a doll. And at college, I was the grunge hippychick girl (at one point digging Slayer and deathmetal. That's sick when I think of it now. Shiver.) who used to drink one on one with my buddy Rap (R.I.P) emptying a bottle of whisky without chaser and in a snap (I shouldn't start with the drinking stories. Now the smell of liquor makes my stomach turn upside down). I was skipping class and missing on finals on my first year, and flunking grades, and the later years I was dean's lister for 3 semesters. The in between is a long journey. Don't want to bore you, hehe. Anyway, I think I am a very versatile person and I am very girl with my style in my mind, but I like to be comfy in real life. I prefer sandal over stiletto, but I love dressing up occasionally and just use so much time getting myself foxy. But in the daily life I prefer to not wear makeup (ofcourse, I am always at home) and be really comfy with jeans or sweats and a tshirt and my glasses. Maybe it's because the image of the teacher with her hair up, glasses and transform to the godess in the music videos and the cheesy 80's movie appeals to me, hehe.

Ok so there you have me in a nutshell. My interests is also in celeb gossips nowadays which my older me could kill me for. I never imagined to be digging in such shallow stuff like this, but it's kinda fun. But to save my reputation, the best part is look at what makeup and dress they wear, not their private life (...NOT, no seriously I swear I have no interest in whose house they came out from the night before, hehe).

I am just fooling around a lot, stretching space so this can be dubbed a normal blogentry in my case which is the trademark looong and winding.... I forgot to take notes, silly me. Now I have to concentrate really hard to bring out the details....

Oh yes how can I forget the day I was super cranky. Mess, no cooperation, you get the drift, and the struggle of letting go since I am supposed to be a good sister and be supportive in a difficult time. Oh forgive me for even saying this loud. I am a jerk for thinking and hang up in these things, but I am just a humanbeing, and I am really setting aside these selfish feelings for I feel guilty just feeling this. I love her to death, and it's been difficult to deal with it because she has such enthusiasm for her upcoming bundle of joy, but I can't always ride on her good mood, and it makes me feel guilty for not expressing excitement all the time in her rate and her intensity, but still I am really excited. I have never felt this personally and I can't relate to that extent. But as soon as I snap to my angelic side and feel the guilt, I go to her and just gives her a kiss on the cheek. Ok, I am rambling now, does this even make sense.

And the pc got me cranky too. Solved it after hours, but I feel we so need more protection. I managed to solve an issue again. A virus had planted a fake file to resemble the exe files that runs when you do start-run. And with the help of a toll that I googled, it detected it and made it disappear. Also cleaned the registry some more by manually removing PS 7 files since my unistall was interrupted.

Let's go to happy news. This entry is so somber. Ok, tax money is here. SLR here we come. I am so excited, and Bizzi asked me to buy it already, but I want him to be there, so I am delaying it till his dayoff. I can jump for joy, but can still imagine being really bored with no subject and cloudy weathers.

So what else has happened. Talked to mom. Been a long time since I heard her voice. Miss her so much. She's bugging me about stuff like going to the long delayed doctortrip, and other stuff. But I kept cool. She only wants my best, and she says it so nicely. Still nice to talk to her. Love my parents so much. They have been busy with gardening now and want to start a bakery. Wish them the best, because they deserve the best.

We follow football and scream and shout like mad. Man that nederland versus portugal was wild. So many yellow card and 4 red cards. Lots of heat on that match. Important is that Germany and England advances. With Sweden out of the competition I am cheering for Mr. Beckham and

Funny stuff. Watched a little afternoon tv and stumbles upon bold and beautiful which we watched religiously back in the days when the whole family was here. Hahaha. That's all I can say. And theya re finally showing a newer version of 7th heaven. The Camden are really the idyllic family. Can't believe how they've grown, and how two of them are not there. And Lucy is preggy and married to this Brad Pitt like figure. Picture-perfect, aaah...

Sleep is normal as off now. Suddenly got sleepy in front of the pc around 1 am, and laid myself to sleep. Eventhough I woke up pretty late.

I discovered this new product at our local grocery. It's a refreshing yoghurt drink. I am loving these type of drinks. It is in two flavors. Raspberry with Lemon and Strawberry. And I bought a bag of ice. I want to satrt making ice coffee's again, and now I just need a sunny weather to match my chilled and refreshing drinks.

Before I forget, I got my LO draft of our wedding album. I am already working on the alterations. Best way is to make suggestions by coorecting the layouts with my CS2 and I am also complimetning it with some written description. It was ok, but maybe a little too plain. But love the choices of pics (which I never came around to pick), and some I really loved. It landed on my spam actually, so I have had it for 4 days actually.

Ok I am off to buy the rice now. Can't stand the loud rumble of my tummy. It interrupts my thinking ;)

Planted by the gardener, Angie :: 3:01 PM :: |

Friday, June 23, 2006 Shopping hormones and pocket casualty

Ok I need to dump my piling thoughts on this blog before they explode on me. Ok as the title implies, this is gonna be mostly about my shopping spree. And no, this is not scrapsupplies which I also went shopping for today. If I am deadly shoppping for kits while sitting home, I wreck more damage going out and visiting shops like Mango and Morgan Toi while they have sale.

But let's get chronological shall we and start with older news.

I sent my application through internet for the foreign exchange position and I am so glad to have that out of the way. Yesterday I interpreted for the hospital and since I am under a confidentiality clause I can't reveal the details, but I can say that I learnt that heart attack is actually a wound in the heart that needs to be healed. And I must say that doctors they see illness and deaths and is part of their routine. I am sure they are saddened and some ways affected but due to the nature of their job they have to block away the emotions to persevere in their profession and not get a breakdown or loss of concentration. But I decided not to make it my job and routine to interpret, and even if the patient was mumbling and rambling and his speech wasn't straight because of the attack, I looked at him and paid attention to him ad looked interested. After all this might as well have been my dad. My dad was seriously ill at one point and I knew it frightened me a lot back then. I remember how sad I was and how filled with tears I was when he did no longer recognize us. Anyways, thank God for letting him be with us longer.

Btw, Liv just reminded me of how mushy I was at my previous entry. I had to read it all over again. I never do that. Because my diary is mostly just a vent forum till I feel the need to reminisce a certain day ( which got me thinking now, will I in my older age and shaking hands still be typing away. Hmmm). Anyways, back to the issue, damn was I mushy. It makes me shiver a bit, just a bit.

When we talk about romantic, looking back at my wedding we were never that romantic. I used to cry (still do) of weddings and seeing the couples so sweet. Maybe it is because we lived together already, but the important thing for us was that we could share it with our loved ones, thus we had it two places. But surprisingly I didn't cry looking at him. It was the other folks that made me cry. Like for example my bestfriend who made me cry a flood of tears. We felt more like a host of a party than the main event. I cried in our first rite at the mosque. What was supposed to be just a briefing by their priest on their religion suddenly became a marriage rite. And I cried because it came so sudden and unexpected. i wasn't prepared for it, and I cried for noone was there from the family. And at the same time I cried of joy. It was very mixed emotions that day, and I was confused and din't know whteher to rejoice or be mad being the always have to be prepared miss.

Back to today. Imagine we haven't even began the shopping stories. So let's have that over with. The day when I interpreted, I went to Mango to submit my application and shopped for some stuff. A coat, a sweater and a printed t-shirt. Some stuff definitely caught my eye. The white tshirt I liked they had none in my size. The white bag with red accents in my collage I picked it up and later put it back. It was the type that would go dirty pretty fast with its color and material. I saw some of the stuff on their netshop and some not there but which I loved. A green leather jacket with frayed accents, and a big cream colored bag. I love those big leather bags with nice handles and buckles. It's so trendy with the celebs and I often see them featured in the magazines with celebs wearing them, although these are not designers like them. The price for those two were a little stiff so I said to myself I better think it over and also discuss with hubby.

I showed him the stuff at home. He smiles, and said if it was him I would go mad. And that is so true. But with him he asks first, and I don't let him (though he got his laptop lately which he have been bugging me for so long now). His remark wasn't a bitter one. In fact he likes it whne I buy stuff and get dressed. I love parading for hime when I am all dressed up and he nods for his approval. He likes it when I make an effort to look good once in a while, although he never imposed it on me. I said to him feeling all guilty that I didn't have sweater and shoes and stuff. And guess what he does, he opens a browser and finds a shoeshop to look for shoes that he would like me to have, or atleast a style that I could buy. yes he is a keeper for supporting the woman urges of shopping. In fairness, I get him always nice and expensive bday presents while I always insist year after year not to buy anything for me. So to relieve my guilt, I asked that if the stuff I bought could be named my belated bday gift. And also when we go to Pinas he always gets 50 tshirts and lots of other stuff and shoes while I hold myself back (I bought a little, but then again each item was pricey)

I have two guilty feelings after this shopping

1. Guilty for burning 4 grand (24k php) in clothing as total damage including todays catch
2. Guilty for not buying at the net earlier so I got my faves, or stopping by the shop earlier. Man my faves ran out fast. Now I know what to do next time. Shop online once the newsletter comes with the sale warning.
3. Gulity for not getting anything for Bizzi (Although I asked him and he said he didn't want anything at this point)

I browsed the internet and the stuff on my faves were mostly gone, had no size or no more of the color I liked.

So that brings us to today. Placed an order of two items at the shop. I put on stuff and delete them. Was so fickle minded. In one point I had 10 items in my shopping chart. But I was so set to getting that jacket that I just had to fight the temptation.

Sorry, I gotta go back to yesterday and just tell you how awful I felt right before coming home. I had woken up 10 pm and was up till the following day, went and interpreted and then to mango. I was yawning constantly, heart palpitations, short of breath and dizzy for lack of sleep. I got home and then my tummy went bad. I crashed to bed right after being on the pc a bit. I felt like ont he verge to collapse, but that didn't stop me from doing a little shopping (I swear we girls must have had a shopping cart inside our mother's womb).

"Astig" LOL

Today again. I was really sporty dressed today with my puma gear. A little boyish and endorsing puma with puma caps, tshirt and bag, but rubber from Adidas. For shopping, one must wear comfy shoes. It's a must. Very lucky today, cause I finally got to catch some sun. It came out and the city was bustling and cafe life was present in the streets. I see people and I miss interactions. Seing this now after having isolated myself and gone hiatus (but now that will change with all my new stuff to show off, so I can be a little trendy and not seem like coming from a time capsule. Yes my wardrobe is filled to the rim, but I see all these trendy people outside and I feel a little left out). First stop Mango. I went up and down and up again and asked for the jacket and they said down, and then I discovered a new section. The thing with Mango is that not only do they have nice clothing but their collection is massive. So much to pick from. The other day, I had to go over the racks twice. this day twice as well. I went to the other outlet today, and saw some of the stuff from the net, and some didn't have my size. Bummer. I was just going to buy that lather jacket, but just before going to the cashier I picked up some stuff near the cashier. Todays Mango Purchase was charged to Mastercard. Instead I thought of just adding extra amount to our monthly regular installments so it would be like I would partially pay for it in monthly installments. That way it wouldn't be so heavy on the wallet. In the testing room, I almost got claustrophobic. It was a cramped space and I had picked up one of those complicated criss crossed tops. With the spotlight dead on me with its scorching heat, I struggled to put it on. What girls go through... I also discovered that the bags I saw on the net were smaller than I imagined. I also discovered that the stuff I bought they had it on the store. But it's better to be safe cause I didn't see the bag I wanted on the outlet yesterday. I am glad though that the big leather bag I saw yesterday wasn't there. Saved a few bucks. And I am usually an exclusive Mango girl, but had to snag some stuff at H&M. My main purpose was to find a white sleevelss top to have under my sheer seethrough and knits, but picked up more stuff. Knitted armygreen sweater with a hood and a butooned tshirt-love those fit t-shirt. It's so Winona Ryderish-Reality bites(I observed that knitted was the prevalent accent of their last collection as well as raffles. And also the knickers with some bucles and other accents and puffy details. I see lots of girls wearing these knickers with heeld shoes. And also shorts a little above the knee looked to be trendy. Actually these are the things I should be buying because I am so obsessed with tops and blouses that I have too many of them. Although my principle is that with one jeans, and changing tops and accesories you can always achieve different look. So one doen't need too many jeans and pants actually.). I also bought shoes from a store who always has reasonable prices (pang masa ika nga). I peeked in at Bianco (bianco.com), but a little over budget. And yes I do have budgets even when I impulse shop. I also had this "no blouse or tops for more than 200" policy. I wanted some wool sweater, but I am so darn lazy to handwash.

See how chatty I am when it comes to shopping. I am just typing like mad here that I could get an overspeed ticket if there was such a thing.

More news for today. I went to sis in law's office since they wanted to discuss something with me. They apparently needed me to work there and develop and follow up on the bid they won. It was a form of expansion with that contract and they needed an extra hand to make it all happen and so they can improve and win it again after 2 years. To be honest, I am a little hesitant. I worked there before a bit, and for many reasons I find it a bit difficult to work for family. Let's just see first if I get any response from my applications. Anyway I had one cig today with cafe mocha. Couldn't resist with the company and being outdoors in the sun. Lethal combination.

Some visuals first. Thought I brag about my conquest for a while, hehe.



From my camera, my shopping bag contents. I really heart that frayed edges on the green jacket and how it is shaped to the body. And that printed tshirt rocks. It has japanese culture prints on it and geisha's. I love oriental flare and besides I just loved the length of it. It's slightly longer than the ordinary tshirt.


From the netshop. Items 1 & 2 I ordered from the internet (but white sweater). I bought items 3-7, but the raffled in yellowish beige and the last one in white. Item 8 they didn't have my size on the net an was empty at the outlet, but I loved the details in this. There is a flower detail below which can hardly be seem from here. The raffled last one is from the newere collection. I love it. Look at the sleeves. It's all about the details...



And I bragged so much about Mango, but that doesn't necessarily mean that I love all their clothes. The 3 above are pieces that I wouldn't be caught dead wearing. I understand the trend of ballerina shoes, but ballerina tops? The bikini would loke more decent if you removed the middle part and made it a 2 piece. This comes off a little slutty. Detailwise it is ok. It just seem to be more bare than a twopiece. Now the third one I don't even know where to begin with this hideous stuff. It takes me back to a certain era; I don't know, maybe 80's early 90's, hmm. My spine is shivering when I think of myself and my hairsprayed bangs and puffy sleeves, but somehow these sleeves is worse than the 80's. and midrib, come on, who are we trying to fool here. Enough dissing. Just having a little fun.

Che, heard you shopped at the net. be warned my child, it could be addicting. maybe you'll turn triggerhappy on that checkout button, LOL :D

Sunny lovely weather as I said so had to buy something cold to drink on my way home. Iwas longing for fruitshake and frapuccino, but Norway doesn't have so many options so it was a slush in the convenience store and peach icetea.

Btw, can someone tell me what ROFL is. I am not updated with this.



Leave you with a pic of my baby last weekend. I almost forgot that it was friday and that Bizzi didn't have work. Must be all the shopping clouding my thoughts, LOL.

Planted by the gardener, Angie :: 5:50 PM :: |

Wednesday, June 21, 2006 Rants and Raves of a geek

Ok before I rant and rave, here is another one of my LO's:



Daughter of a good friend.

Credits: Background from Meredith Fenwick and pink fiber from Kim Christensen, both from Sundress kit (part of -her cd- collection), Paisley and letter "l" by Kim Christensen from Girls Lie too (also part of her cd) Felt frame, heart, and crochet flower from Gina Cabrerera at DDE, felt flower used as frame is a freebie from Holly McCaig, Patchlike flower and funky flower from Gina Miller and the pink stone is from her byobb kit, polkadot ribbon from Amber Clegg's neopolitan summer kit, pink plain ribbon from Fee Jardine's Appleberry pie kit, lace from Nancie Rowe Janitz' Bleached Linen kit, stitched up button from Jen Wilson, kinda sweet alpha from Gina Miller and vintage girl alpha from Lori Barnhurst. Font is Carpenter ICG.
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Warning: This is as the title of this post suggest, a geeky rant and rave, so if techie stuff gives you the headache, then refrain from reading this, hehe. But this is what mostly consumed my whole night so thus a need to blog about it. And if your Photoshop is acting weird on you, this may be the solution.

I had signed up for a norwegian site (datascrapping.no) and was eager to create a LO to share and besides, so many LO's to make including one to celebrate my bestfriend's news (check the tagboard and you'lll see what I mean. Then, something happened with CS2 while I was in the middle of the LO. It just shut down by itself without me saving it. Stubborn me who alreaady knew that LO by heart, redid it, and it shut down. And again, and again, and again... It seemed like it did that everytime I typed. So, first I deleted some fonts since I have over the recommended of 500 fonts. I made it go down from 570 to 520. So problem not fixed. I removed and reinstalled, but no luck there too. I googled and googled and it was difficult to find a hit that matched my problem as precise and concise as I was. And also had problem with my task manager not showing up (I am beginning to love taskmanager to analyze the performances and processes-what eats up my resources, and what program might cause my problems). For the task manager problem I found out that downloading a free virus scan named and avg would detect and remove the problem. And so I did. Apparently something I downloaded planted a virus. Luckily when that virus disguised as an outlook program tried to access the net, Norton Antivirus popped up and asked if I was to allow it, but I blocked it. Anyway, I started scanning the pc. All 3 harddrives (and one of them partitioned), and it used 3 hours to scan the 300000 files in my pc. I also turned off the internet since I don't want any virus access my pc if it was that type of virus. The scanning removed 22 virus in the system. I think 4 of them was very hazardous. The outlook virus. I restarted and task manager was up again. But still my CS2 was shutting itself when I was typing. Googled some more, and came to a digi scrapbook forum with someone having a problem that looked similar. She was suggested to reassign scratchdisk (which I have done before), disk fragment and disk cleanup. I did the latter two. That again took the time, especially the disk defrag. Disk cleanup went fast since I earlier deleted the compress old files in the system registry when I encountered a problem (see previous posts) with cleanmanager getting stuck and keeping my CPU at 100% which overworked it and made it temperature overheat constantly, despite rebooting. In the end it didn't help. Then I finally found 2 solutions, one said that it mught be faulty font. I have done this process before. Uninstalling and reinstalling my fonts to check if there's any faulty font, so I skipped that solution. And then another one, it suggested that I delete the photoshop preference file and redirected to a link with a tutorial on how to locate and more explanation. Halleluja. It removed the problem. Time 6:30, problem started 11 pm. That's how persistent I am at troublehooting, and it never failed till now. And I was so happy to succeed and be able to use CS2 again that I was on the verge of crying. Imagine my hellish looong and wasted night. I tried everything and thought of everything, even rewinding the happenings to trace what I have done that might have caused it. Oh man, I am happy that was over with. Honestly, I am such a big geek that my beloved computer for me is like cars is for the boys. When they hear a new sound, they notice immediatley. Same with me, I am very sensitive detecting abnormal behaviors and sounds. And good that I am a mechanic too that manages to solve it. So, despite my backaches now, I am just so darn happy to get it fixed.
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Happy news: Bestfriend Amor is having a baby. I am so happy for her. LO to follow. Certainly there is baby boom nowadays! The question is when will I contribute to the growth of population.
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Relationship: I known Bizzi now for more than 5 years, and I am not getting tired of my man a bit. I really have no complaints. If we have any issues, it is so minor and easily resolved. Now with my distorted sleep, I try as much as I can to sleep at the same time as him when he comes from the graveyard shift. We usually lie in the bed with cartoon network on, and he enjoys the show much more than me, but what I likes the most with this is snuggling up and hear him childishly laughing and chuckling over his fave shows. I am smitten and it makes me feel young at heart. We joke a lot with each other before we sleep, asaran ika nga and lambingan. lately I have been so busy with the computer when he is out of working that I sometimes forget to anticipate his homecoming (but when he comes home, I always greet him with a tight hug and he always happy, but struggling to get out of my grips to take of his shoes). The other day, I missed him like crazy. I was texting him sweet messages 5 in the morning, and he sent me back an mms with a picture of himself in his work uniform with the ff words: you don't love me (in norwegian, except for the love, that's how we make lambing; pretending to be sad and say that the partener don't love us, so that the partner will try to convince that it's not true. Well it sounds scripted and so unsweet when I tell you about this, but believe me it is for us). I was giggling at his mms like a girl with a puppy love. I just love that we still feel so freshly in love when we have been together for a long time already. These feelings I feel is really genuine since I have felt the opposite in pasts relationship. I see how they lose the glow with the years and I feel so unreciprocated or treated badly. I see the great difference with Bizzi, and I appreciate it everytime. Now somebody shows me love the same way that I do. Someone thinks I am worthy of attention, someone is valuing my opinions and listens to it and someone respect me. I feel so blessed to find one that never seem to stop to amaze me and to humour me. Bless his kind soul.

The other night it felt good to open to him some stuff that I am bearing inside. He is not the phenomenal psychologist that has all the answers to anyone's problem, but his compassion and listening skills helps me a lot. To know he understands, do not judge and supports. I had to let some steam off and open up how lousy I felt as a wife not getting stuff done and not being able to make him food and not doing enough for my sister (there was a 2 day period where I felt like I was so unhelpful in housework. I often feel this, but these 2 days it was enhanced). And when I ask him if he feels that I am a bad neglecting wife, he laughs and says sarcastically that I am. And I know he is sincere when he says that this has not bothered him at all. That is the great thing with Bizzi. He is not complex and very straightforward. He says it like it is. He might not be this deep and analytical person with insecurites and clogged head, but that's the great thing. He gives me balance, and puts me back on the ground. I am secured and with him I know (and I am aware that some couple who has experienced adultery never expected it or got shocked) that he will stick loyally to my side.

I confess, I am happily married.
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The funny thing with sis' seperation is that just right after she received the edited dvd, they were history as couple. I think videographers must speed up their editing in this day of age with constant divorce. It went so fast that my sister didn't even gete a chance to change her surname which turned out for the better.
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Sunday was movie night once again. This time Bizzi gave up dragging me to the rental shop with him. He called me and asked me what I wanted. I said I wanted any icecream with chocolate (having drumstick in mind, he said horsehoe which I forgot what it was), while sis' wanted those long "icecandy" bars. He came home with 3 for each of us of those icesticks. each 3 in different flavors. And a bag of candy, one type for each of us. And exclusively for me he got a whole icecream cake. It was big, not as I expected. What a sweetie.

He rented a movie by Nicolas Cage called the weatherman and then the animation little chicken. The first one proved to be a black comedy which I discovered in the first minutes of the movies. I told him he rented a black comedy (which I know he don't appreciate, but he just kept it cool since he did the pick. So he didn't go ranting constantly that the movie sucked which would have been another case if I had rented it), and started teasing hime with asking how the preview is and what enticed him to rent it and why he was fooled to think it was a movie he would like. He was smiling when I was teasing him; like man I screwed it up. We did enjoy little chicken. This one we saw in the bedroom since sister was already taking a nappy at this time in her livingroom bedroom.
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"It's just the cutest thing
When you get to fussing (fussing)
Yelling and throwing things
I just wanna eat you up
I don't mean no disrespect
When I start staring
Knowing that it makes you mad
I'm sorry that seeing you mad is so sexy
Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil' way that you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain't sure, but one thing that I do know is
Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
When you put your hands on me I wanna touch you
When we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don't know why it's like that
But you're so damn sexy
When you're mad
Baby, don't think I don't take you seriously
But I just can't help the fact that your attitude excites me (so exciting)
And you know ain't nothing better
Then when we get Mad together and have angry sex (I'll blow you out)
Then we forget what we were mad about..."

That's Ne-yo's new song. I like the message in the lyrics. Not necessarily the erotic part, but it's just that this reminds me so much of Bizzi who always tries to make me mad for so to tickle me pink later.
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Random and/or trivial stuff: Changed my bloglines alert sound which managed to annoy the whole household including yours truly. Now it has this funny comedy sound that is lower and more pleasant to hear.

Sweden tied with England (to Cheche's dismay, LOL). Ofcourse I am for Sweden. It is after all our neighboring country. I like the swedes and I like Zlatan & Co. They are meeting next my baby's team, Germany. He says if they win over Germany, they better win the whole championship, or he'll get mad. My baby is as I told you a real sweetie. He loves Germany, but since he knows I am on the Swede's side, he even considered that they might win with some conditions.

What's up with Paris Hilton and her singing. Have you seen her new video. She is so trying hard, and wiggling and moving like crazy. Overly done! Like someone said it was like a long CK commercial, but a boring one. Her video is what actually started my celeb gossip craze the other day.

And what's up with a threadless keyboard with the ability to reach meters. Hello, is it so that I can type while I am eating dinner or watching tv. Can I even read the screen from a 7 meter distance.

The other day I spilled at myself twice in a day while sitting on the computer, coffee first and second whole opening a sparkling water that turned out to have been shaking through the carjourney. Hate sticky stuff. You should have seen the look in my face. Funny, the first i attended to is the keyboard and the pc instead of myself (It wasn't like it had gone inside and had possibilty to short circuit the whole thing).

As I was eating the other day, with the viand not being so much, I had four spoons of rice to each spoon of viand. It gave me dejavu of my ex with his eating habits, with all his rice follow up. No wonder he fears acquiring diabetese (his dad has too so he is very concious of softdrinks, etc. but obviously not with rice).

Raining nowadays. Not pouring like mad actually, but it's grey and so different from the past weeks with lots of sun. It saddens me a little. I am definitely a sun and summer person although I hold myself indoors and remain unexposed to the rays. The only downer on the sunny days is that sis bought really sheer curtains and I can't see a damn thing.

Old colleague texts me and says she opened her own parlor. She was dreaming of this when we were working together. So nice to hear from peeps I haven't heard from in a long time.
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Budgeting: yes it's a word that the shopaholic wrote (just in digi kits though). We were talking about vaccationing. then I thought about the camera, and future stuff, like getting house and furnitures and investing for kids. We definitely need to make a forecast and set priorities. I do want to be able to travel a bit before we have kids and enjoy each other. I suggested to go to California. I like that there's a lot things to see and do in the states, cheaper than europe and lots of food tripping. Reading dessertcomesfirst Lori's trip to the States left my mouth watering. And I also want to go to Greece or another mediterranean country, or maybe a quick european tour. But one's thing is more certain, a trip to Gothenburg in Sweden with friends for a weekend when weather gets better and everyone's free. It'll be fun.
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That's it. I have to scrap to catch up with lost time fixing the damn software. Bye for now

Planted by the gardener, Angie :: 6:37 AM :: |

Saturday, June 17, 2006 Punched soul, troubleshooting and mango in cotton.

I am a little down today, and feeling very unproductive. Well, I have been feeling unproductive for the longest time, but somehow enhanced today and last night. This procrastination thing is such a big burden. Seing the tons of work and chores I could have done while I was out of job. It's just so hard to resist the computer. It's like it's calling me towards it. Freaky to be so attached to a thing that it's affecting my personal life and environment to such a big degree. I have a LO to share. I spent the longest time finishing it. In fact after hours playing around with it, I had to let go and sleep with unsatisfaction. After waking up, I still used hours on it, and in the end still not too comfy with the end result. Welcome to my perfectionist world. What ever happened to having fun in the process. But I did get some love for it, and it's alway a boost to get comments from the designers you admire *blush*.

Journaling is mostly about the time dad contracted meningitis, and was near death. He returned to a child, lost his memories and got super thin. So I am glad God was merciful and let him stay with us longer.

Credits: Photoalbum, albumpages and alpha from Jen Wilson's Genuine Swing. Papers from jen Wilson's Grandad's lap, cut with Miss Mint's decorative edges, vellum mat vellum from Jen Wilson's everyday bliss kit, Beaded wire from Chelsey's dream kit by Michelle Coleman, Buttons and bookplate from Jen Wilson's latest element packs, vintagepaper paraphernalia from Kathryn Balint's My old Office, frame corners and Inked overlay from IOD essentials kit, Burnt edge Overlay from Michelle Coleman, stitches from Gina Miller and tripleframe from Eve Recinella's Rough n Tumble kit. Fonts are Beccaria, Carpenter ICG and Saeculum.
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And beside from the creative downer within me, the computer also has been guilty on frustrating me and affecting my flow. This is my second baby so my spiderman's senses are tingling when something is wrong. Also, I was to uninstall photoshop 7.0 when it all hang up and I didn't get to finish the uninstall. When I restarted it was unable to uninstall since it was missing a logfile that was vanished through the interrupted uninstall prior to rebooting. And deleting the folder manually in the program files doesn't remove the registry files and other photoshop 7 associated files spread a round. Headache after headache. But the biggest problem is lately, it has been slow, gettig stuck and for example when I type a text at Photoshop, there is delay before it appears. Another thing that has been happening is that when I do disk cleanup it never finishes. I didn't tie it to the slow performance, but later discovered that this was causing it. Also bloglines was a little cuckoo last night, I emailed support and got fixed.

So I opened the task manager and saw that it was 100% all the time, and I didn't have much program on. I had tons of stuff running simultaneously before, but still having it down to 40-70%. This was definitely abnormal. I opened the processes and discovered that the biggest percent of 99% was going to cleanmngr.exe. So I googled my situation which suggested I edit an entry in the registry. I am always a little hesitant touching the registry. I killed the process in the task manager, also edited the registry and last I scanned for spyware with Adware. I read a lot to see what can be causing this and especially if there was a virus in the system (I am currently running an antivirus scan, but not sure if it will be able to detect it). The steps I tok helped, but a probable virus and possibility for a backdoor in my computer which hackers can access is not a happy thought, and the more I am feeling the urgency of having a backup disk for pictures and other important documents. I felt it was so weird to just install new additional ram, but still get poorer performance. Now I get why the computer always told me computer over temperature. The poor thing was overworked by a malfunction.

Anyways, I am bit back on track computerwise. Just need to some clearing and cleaning. Wish I could also get myself to do some cleaning outside the monitor.

Supposedly (there I go again with my supposedly), I was going to a kurdish wedding with Bizzi. With limited transpo, my baby asked me if I still wanted to go. Learning that sis in law wasn't coming, I wasn't so thrilled to sitting with the elders for I would certainly not dance without my usual companions. I get to do ther stuff then, like scrapping *wink*. was relieved to be relieved of the event.

I managed to finish my application for the foreign exchange bank, but will submit it by sunday when sleep is adjusted hopefully. Another job opening that appealed to me is at Mango. Head of their biggest branch in Oslo, assistant chief and visual achuchu. I want to apply as the assistant chief. I love Mango clothing and it would be a treat to work in their firm. Sp since we are talking about Mango. Look at this.

And I went through over 1000 apparels on their norwegian website and here are my faves:

And unless I was a millionaire, I would get the whole bunch, but since I am a far cry from one with my bum ass, here is my narrowed choice. I am a mad shopper I tell you to go through this tedious process before heading to their store.

And to show you excactly how tedious the process was look at the other that didn't fall into my faves, but which I still loved.

and on the topic of fashion, I scanned this from the brochure of one of the nearby malls. I just love the white trend. It's so summery. With hint of browns also. And I loved the color of that bikini. So sweet.

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I was having a sappy attack the other day. Well why you might ask. It's all about the weddings. saw Dionne's AVP at Threelogy and another wawie's as well and Nikki's prenups at Ilocos. Also Ade's pics too. Sigh, I miss my wedding preps. I am just so happy for these cyberpals of mine. I know how extatic they must feel. Sigh, again. Another reason I have been having sappy attacks is because of all the sad stuff happening around the world. Some afghan men is hungerstriking downtown because they fear to be sent back to their country in fear of prosecution. They have been doing this for 3 weeks now poor guys. The governement means it's safe for them now, but apparently they disagree, or maybe it's becasue they've got a ataste of a better life in which case why should they be deprived of the opprtunity of that. Then again, there are policies and complex structures of rules that needs to be folowed in order to have equality and order. For while I pity these guys, I am also apalled by the crimes some refugees commit while they are here, and ruining the chances of other who are genuine and noble. And then again, these same criminal offenders have seen and witnessed brutality in their daily life while I sit here sheltered from harm. I also wept for the 2 muslims who were set free after they were shot at being mistaken for terrorists. He was talking about his fear of dying and how he felt at the moment they were shot at. I see how difficult it must have been for him with the look in his eyes.

And last night I also spent most of my time browsing on celeb gossips in the States. At TMZ and at this place called superficial. Some were really funny to read. All the dissing and sarcasm.

By the way a warning to messenger users (yahoo and msn and the likes). If someone on your list (even if it's a friend you trust) suddenly appears and sends you a link just like that, don't click on the link. It's a virus. It's not harmful, but it will in turn do the same to your contacts. I was a vcitim, but managed to remove it. Twice I have gotten messages now even if I was on invisible mode, but I fortunately know better now. So don't fall for that. Who knows, maybe it's a harmful one that has been developed.

I leave you with that for now, although there are some small stuff I haven't gotten to. But it's in my notes. So till next time...

Planted by the gardener, Angie :: 12:04 AM :: |